lovelustfear | sadie | i could kill you right now
Episode 7, May 22, 09:30 AM
Sadie finds herself drawn to a drug-addicted "bad boy" with a criminal past. When her efforts to rehabilitate him fail, her addiction to this abusive and dangerous man threatens to end her career, her family, and her life.
chapters
(00:00) listen with caution
(00:16) next on lovelustfear
(01:42) about sadie
(02:53) sadie’s story
(24:43) questions & answers
(29:30) closing thoughts
(30:33) charity & organizations
(31:03) submit your story
(31:14) disclaimer
quotes
“I was with him for almost fifteen years. And then one day this one thing happened and I felt like something snapped inside of me. Like something died instantly. And I was like, I'm done.” - Sadie
“...he was very honest with me about his drug use and he had a pretty extensive, criminal history. And I felt like, because he was honest with me right away and he asked me to hold my judgment I felt like, I can do that.” - Sadie
“I went all in on this relationship. I thought he has the potential to be something really, really great. Something that I felt like only I could see. And I thought that I could help him get to that point, and other people were like, no, he's dangerous, he's a bad person.” - Sadie
“And then he sent me a text message and it said, you were smart to lock the door. And I was like, please just leave, please don't do anything. Will you please just leave? And he said, you let me in the house or I will rip the door off the house. Let me in or I will just tear this door off.” - Sadie
“I've had to, forgive myself, recognize, and this is a huge part of being a therapist too, is recognizing that I am a human, just like everyone else, and that I make mistakes just like everyone else, because people think, ‘Oh, a therapist, like you're supposed to have it all together, You're supposed to know how to do everything.'” - Sadie
music | sounds
Music (CC BY 4.0):
Lost Place Atmospheres (001-003) by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
Other Music and Sound Effects by Syouki Takahashi, Geoffrey Harvey, Alex Wit, cybercutie, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, Samuel Kamau, and Yevhenii Kovalenko from Pixabay
Spacetime by Mountaineer
stay aware | follow | share (sadie)
https://www.cadamn.org/keep-me-safe
Keep Me Safe provides a safe and nurturing place for children to visit their non-custodial parents. We strive to provide a positive, healthy, and nurturing environment where children and their caregivers can be assured that supervised parenting time and exchanges will be conflict-free.
CADA’s (Committee Against Domestic Violence) mission is to provide safety and support to victims of domestic and sexual violence through education advocacy and shelter.
National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
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chapters
(00:00) listen with caution
(00:16) next on lovelustfear
(01:42) about sadie
(02:53) sadie’s story
(24:43) questions & answers
(29:30) closing thoughts
(30:33) charity & organizations
(31:03) submit your story
(31:14) disclaimer
quotes
“I was with him for almost fifteen years. And then one day this one thing happened and I felt like something snapped inside of me. Like something died instantly. And I was like, I'm done.” - Sadie
“...he was very honest with me about his drug use and he had a pretty extensive, criminal history. And I felt like, because he was honest with me right away and he asked me to hold my judgment I felt like, I can do that.” - Sadie
“I went all in on this relationship. I thought he has the potential to be something really, really great. Something that I felt like only I could see. And I thought that I could help him get to that point, and other people were like, no, he's dangerous, he's a bad person.” - Sadie
“And then he sent me a text message and it said, you were smart to lock the door. And I was like, please just leave, please don't do anything. Will you please just leave? And he said, you let me in the house or I will rip the door off the house. Let me in or I will just tear this door off.” - Sadie
“I've had to, forgive myself, recognize, and this is a huge part of being a therapist too, is recognizing that I am a human, just like everyone else, and that I make mistakes just like everyone else, because people think, ‘Oh, a therapist, like you're supposed to have it all together, You're supposed to know how to do everything.'” - Sadie
music | sounds
Music (CC BY 4.0):
Lost Place Atmospheres (001-003) by Sascha Ende
Very Low Note by Kevin MacLeod (incompetech.com)
Other Music and Sound Effects by Syouki Takahashi, Geoffrey Harvey, Alex Wit, cybercutie, Timothy Kulig, Pixabay, Samuel F. Johanns, UNIVERSFIELD, Samuel Kamau, and Yevhenii Kovalenko from Pixabay
Spacetime by Mountaineer
stay aware | follow | share (sadie)
https://www.cadamn.org/keep-me-safe
Keep Me Safe provides a safe and nurturing place for children to visit their non-custodial parents. We strive to provide a positive, healthy, and nurturing environment where children and their caregivers can be assured that supervised parenting time and exchanges will be conflict-free.
CADA’s (Committee Against Domestic Violence) mission is to provide safety and support to victims of domestic and sexual violence through education advocacy and shelter.
National Domestic Violence Hotline (24/7/365)
Call 1.800.799.SAFE (7233)
Text: START to 88788
https://www.thehotline.org/
https://www.facebook.com/NationalDomesticViolenceHotline
https://www.instagram.com/NDVHofficial/
story submission information
If you would like to consider being a guest on lovelustfear or would like your story featured anonymously, please contact us below.
submission link | https://lovelustfear.aidaform.com/lovelustfear
E-mail | lovelustfearpod@gmail.com
Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/lovelustfearpod/
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Spotify
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Apple
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